By the Beach :: Relaxation

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Now Playing: L.O.V.E - Anonymous

Sunday, March 26, 2006

i met her today..

just..let me unshackle my thoughts..

supposingly it should be an enjoyable day.. attended 2 birthday parties.. but i just don't have the mood for anything..

we met each other.. had a short conversation which lasted less than half a minute.. it has been a month and 20 days since our breakup.. and it seems like efforts all these while to get myself out of this anguish went tumbling down the moment she appeared right in front of me..

the conversation was short.. although i appear to be taking it easy..bidding farewell..waving happily..deep inside.. i wanted so much to make her stay longer.. seeing her walking away.. many thoughts came up..
who is she meeting up with ?
is that a guy or a girl ?
why are they meeting up for ?
and lastly..who am i now to know about all these things..

just some confessions..
many friends has been telling me things like..perhaps i'm just not used to her absence in my life.. i can definitely meet someone better someday.. i should carry on with my life as she already did..and many more..

many thanks for friends who helped my thru this period of time.. but i guess i just let everyone down.. after some reflections.. i know she's the one i loved.. neither do i wish to have anyone better.. no one is perfect and ever since we got together i'm willing give-in in anyway i could.. she's the one which i want to spend my life with.. i know it's no use saying all these now.. it's all now.. too late..

so.. yea.. look at the people around you.. those that you should treasure, but you havent been doing so.. there's this chinese saying which says: there's only one him/her in this world.. once you lost it, thats it.. so, treasure them while you still can.. for me.. let time decide what happens next..

i know it's very unusual of me to get so emotional.. i just.. couldnt help it. anyway, thanks.. if u're reading this now..

perhaps something else to lighten up the atmosphere.. second bday party which i attended is actually at my cousin's place.. his son's 2nd birthday, as well as his daughter's 1st month after given birth.. just nice huh.. can celebrate together.

Carrying this 1 month old baby girl in my arms.. looking at her beautiful eyes.. holding her tiny hands.. the baby smell which i missed after few years ago when my sis's still a baby..it's the same special feeling..carrying a newly born life.. it feels really great.. took some pictures with her elder brother which is 2 yrs old, very playful but adorable kid..lol. i love talking baby language with him when he tries to say something like 'er~ ar~~ dada~~ woooo~'.. VERY cute.. lol.. will update pictures when my cousin uploaded them..

thats all for today.. thanks once again.. for letting me to share my thoughts with..

blogged with love by Josified @ 9:34 PM