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Now Playing: L.O.V.E - Anonymous

Friday, June 02, 2006

Right, just sent my sis to school as she gotta report at 6am for camp. right now i just couldnt get back to sleep.. While on my way home was like thinking alot again.. why is that so.. afterall it has been around 4 months now.. why cant I just get over it and move on.. I havent been telling anyone what's exactly goin on in my mind.. perhaps i should try voicing out..

4 months back, my life totally changed and it felt like you just plummet from a soaring cliff.. I know this is going to be temporary, life has got many other things for me to attend to, but hey.. 4 months of living hell, they certainly are the gloomiest days in my entire life..

It happened somewhere before my final exam.. stress is everywhere pertaining about family issues and studies.. and when she told me about her decision.. I felt mentally breakdown for the first time in my life. why.. why do this just when I needed you most.. It was that period of time which were really tough for me, I was like a living corpse..for the fact that final exams are coming and I cant allow myself to go down just like that.. so what I did was to pretend that nothing happened, and didnt had any chance to voice out about the throbbing incident. During exam period, I did went to look for her.. which gt really rejected and heartrending.. It was the expressions which were never shown on her face, telling me its all over..

when exams are over.. I felt so numb and emotionless, didnt know what to do either.. I was thinking perhaps give each other some time to think about it.. all the while I was hoping for someday I can do something to convince her instead of giving up.. right now.. I guess it was all too late.. she's now in a new relationship or rather another guy who's there for her.. perhaps its time for me to stop prying into her life.. 2nd June 2004, we got together.. I truly felt like the happiest man on earth.. 2 years later at this very same day, I'm giving my blessings for her relationship now..

Well, its time to move on joe.. one should learn that loving someone is not about possession, I'm glad enough knowing that.. she will be loved..

blogged with love by Josified @ 6:39 AM