ai.. I'm so alleviated that the week is finally over.. it surely has been a hectic and miserable 5days .. the amount of stress I faced was beyond imagination.. here's how it happened..
Change of Appointment Parade..'New BPCC Cadet Wing Commander.. officer cadet.. Joseph Ong.'
O_O my heart stumped for a moment before I actually stepped out to recieve my new rank. as the new ranks are fixed on my shoulders.. I know I'm in for some mess orgy for the week. Its a week allocated for Boat Package where we learn to operate assault boats in open sea. So being the cwc of the course, I have to run the show for the course.
Planning for training schedule wouldnt be so wearisome without some idiots hindering me, making my life so miserable. Especially this particular officer who just joined us from another company. He's the reason why I slept for less than 10 hours in 4 days.. Everyday after planning and going thru the tiring trainings, he'll purposely call for me and my 2 platoon commanders in the office while everyone already turned in, just to present to him my plans for the next day's schedule. You would be thinking perhaps he's just making sure that things don't go wrong.. I would greatly appreciate if he's sincerely trying to help me out afterall it's my first time taking over the whole course but.. what I got was nothing but tekaning..
'I give you 15mins, write me an AOP (approval of plan) for tomorrow's program'
frankly speaking 15mins for me is not enough.. but I just do whatever I can, and presented to him. Just browsing for less than 3 seconds he tears everything..
'I give you another 5 mins.. get out of here and redo another AOP..'
At this stage I know I'm in for some tekan session.. 5mins later I opened the door and walked in..
'oie ! you like to walk alot izzit.. 3 of you better crawl here now !'
right.. he made us crawl forward to his chair and crawl back to the door again.. Just as I was crawling on the floor many thoughts came into my mind.. I asked myself.. why am I doing this.. It's just 2 years of my life and no big deal whether I made it in my officership or not.. where have all my pride gone to.. why do I have no intent to stand up and fight for myself.. I have no idea man.. of all the humiliation I'm still able to tolerate.. that's probably the most mortifying thing I've ever done to myself..
Anyway thats one of the awful experience I had for the week.. I'm glad that my coursemates are very cooperative and listens to my command.. thou everyone went thru some hardship carrying boats here and there due to punishments, everyone still stick together striving thru tough moments..
It made me realised that being a leader is not easy.. everyone looked up to you.. everyone expect alot from you.. no matter how stressed and shagged you are, infront of everyone you still have to present yourself like you're strong and good to go.. A good leader must be able to work under stress, if one cant even control himself.. don't even think of controlling his men..
As I mentioned.. Tough times don't last, tough man do. see I'm now slacking at home again... lol~ That's probably one of the positive way to think and get myself moving on in my officership..
blogged with love by Josified @ 5:54 PM